why did you have to hurt me so?

I AM A BIT PISSED OFF.

I CAN'T HELP IT. I HAD TO LET IT OUT.

I CAN FEEL TEARS ON MY FACE.

IS IT WRONG TO DECLINE FROM SOMETHING THEY KNOW I'M NOT USED TO DOING?

OKAY. THE FACT THAT I AM DRINKING HAS BEEN LET OUT. BUT HEY, I'M JUST A BEGINNER.

I DON'T DRINK THAT MUCH TOO.

SO I HOPE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND IF I HAVE THE NERVE TO DECLINE AN OFFER.

ESPECIALLY AT TIMES THAT I CAN'T AFFORD GETTING DRUNK AND HAVING A HANGOVER THE NEXT

DAY.

OKAY. THANKS FOR THE OFFER. THANKS FOR THE THOUGHT OF INVITING ME OVER, THINKING THAT I COULD HAVE BEEN FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF FOR NOT BEING INVITED.

BUT I TOLD YOU. IT'S OKAY. I DON'T HAVE ANY PLANS OF GOING OUT. I HAVE STUFF TO DO. YEAH, I KNOW I NEED TO RELAX, BUT ALCOHOL WON'T BE IN THE LIST.

I SUPPOSED YOU SHOULD HAVE UNDERSTOOD BETTER. YOU'RE A FRIEND. I KNOW IT WAS JUST A JOKE WHEN YOU SHOUTED 'FOUL' WORDS ON ME, BUT STILL THAT HURTS.

THAT ONLY PUSHES ME FAR FROM THE CROWD WHERE YOU ARE CURRENTLY IN. I DON'T WANT. AND I DON'T FORCE MYSELF INTO YOUR GROUP. SO PLEASE UNDERSTAND.

SIGHS.

I JUST FEEL SO DOWN AFTER. THERE ISN'T ANY BETTER WAY TO HURT ME LIKE YOU DID.