blog design contest 2010 - happy new year!

It's a discovery for me, thanks to Tin [www.bubblelovemocha.com]..
So there's no harm trying one's luck! Happy New Year everyone! ^_^



[following details are copied from the original website]
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What you can win:

* A custom blog theme/template for selfhosted Wordpress or Blogger (no Wordpress.com, sorry, it’s not possible).
* With up to 15 credits in istockphoto images for the design (if you want more images, you’ll have to purchase them).
* And up to 3 revisions of the blog sketch!
* You will also get a 125 x 125 px banner for it!

Important Guidelines

* The design will include fonts that are free for commercial use (but you can choose to buy yourself a professional one, there’s some really cheap ones).
* The theme/template will include a credit link in the footer.
* The prize does not include plugin customization, or anything like that outside the theme itself. Uploading content to the blog is your responsability.
* If you have images you want included in the design, you must own them, or have a license for them. Using images right out of Google or other places won’t be possible.

How to enter?

(you have to complete all of the following -except the 4 that is optional-)

1. Subscribe to the Blog via RSS or email!
2. Post about this contest on your blog using the banner below, and LINKING to this post with the guidelines.
3. Come back here and leave me comment with a link to your post, and tell me what is/was your New Year’s resolution for 2010!!
4. If you use Twitter, retweet about this Contest in Twitter to get twice the chances (and remember to leave me your twitter username in the comment)!!
5. Only 1 comment per person, so make sure you put all the info in your comment. I will delete the extra comments and asign you all numbers for the shuffle once it closes.

DEADLINE: January 20, 2010.

painful dream

I had this dream, a very disturbing dream for me. It started with what I did, which I actually can’t remember clearly anymore.
Stealthily went to a house to get something.
It was as if the scene was movie-directed and I was supposed to get something without the knowledge of my parents.
Running away afterwards. I was with someone who helped me find a place to stay for the night.
The place was set in LB actually. We cannot go to my apartment thinking my father will go straight to that place.
The “girl” who helped me took me to someone’s apartment [Conrad] so we went there.
But the next scene changed to going back to the apartment (I think) then to that apartment of my friend again. And there was so many people already.
People I know. People who are dearest to me. HS batchmates. LCD 1 friends. Some orgmates. Some college friends.
They were against me, actually.
There was a scene that Dada and I lashed at each other. Then Pipo came beside me, held my face and said “Do you know farming? You haven’t crossed the mountain yet.”
Sounded weird and confusing but I think it has a ring into it.
The time I woke up I started crying.
My heart was so troubled. My chest was so heavy I couldn’t stop the tears from falling.
The entire dream conveyed my biggest fear – losing everyone I love and cherished the most. Not from death, but losing them in the essence of walking away from me. Being truly madly at me.
Sighs.
Painful.

The saddest and painful part of it all.
No one even stood up for me that time.
Just this girl whom I can't clearly remember who helped me find a place to stay but she disappeared in the scene afterwards.
So, in short, no one actually cared?

Bum.

doctor, doctor

I discovered this manga [HELP!!]which, honestly, reminded me of my "dream". Yep, it's a story of a girl wanting to become a doctor. Of course, the manga also included a whisp of romance and comedy. But still, the bottomline is, the theme is studying to become a doctor, dream to become a GOOD DOCTOR.

O well, I am inspired and reading this manga made me feel excited at the same time wary and bit scared. Nevertheless, it's a good break.

Hopefully, I can be a good doctor soon!

dreaming to be with MY family

I saw this again, after going through the last chapter of Moe Kare, one of the mangas I've read in the past. This made me teary-eyed when I first finished reading the manga. The feeling I had was kinda queasy, like I wanted to have the same scene in my life in the future. Not exactly, but to meet that person you really love and to have a family with him was one of my girlish dreams, I suppose. I want to experience LOVE, where just looking at the eyes of my husband, I know the words he wanted to say..

But, o well, it will be too many years from now for that to happen, I hope.
And one bright morning, I will face the day with a big smile as I looked back at my sleeping husband and future baby (hope babies=TWINS!) ^_^


[credit picture to www.mangafox.com ~ thanks!]

addicted to you

Yes.
I am REALLY addicted to this latest manga that I have been reading.

KAICHOU MAID-SAMA
[Student COuncil President is a Maid]


I won't tell much about the story, but I recommend YOU to go and read it.
Cool, fun and romantic.


[credit to www.mangafox.com - thank you!]

This part in the manga is what I have been dying to read since the beginning.
Well, see actually.

The night where Misaki finally confessed, well not wholly confessed the 'I Love YOu' part.. I'll be waiting for that one..but what matters is that, at least she admitted how Usui affects her!

SWEET!

O well, I can feel love in the air.
I hope Ch. 44 comes out soon!


LOve it.
LOOOOOOOOOoooooove it!
Haha.

on and off

It was a struggling decision when I confessed.
Even though it was not personally executed, it was emotional.
That time, I decided to step away..
from the world we both share.
Seeing one another was like fate entangling us both.
I am not trying to tie the rope of our hearts together..
so I continued hiding, staying away.
But life sure has its own makings and we met again on the crossroad.
Touch, the consent, the acceptance..
the choice of erasing what has been said and done.
To save something, you have to sacrifice.
My heart is settled, I guess.
The mere feeling of your hand entertwined in the strands of my hair.
That proves I'm still part of you.
And you to me.
I should be contented, not selfish.

We may not be lovers.
We're friends.
That's how it is supposed to be, right?

explored, experienced, survived

It was beyond what I expected.
Far more than what I've prepared for mentally and physically.




On top of Mt. Daguldol, we faced off against the storm (Typhoon Santi). Our only protection was our respective tents and the power of prayer and support for each other. The howling wind flapping against the tent brought upon shivering coldness against our already damp skin. We decided to disperse to different available tents when our tent was nearing its collapse. I waited for dawn under the shelter of someone's tent, shaking, wet, our feet waded in a pool of water already entering the premises. The wind continued its journey in our camp site and all we did was pray and stay together on top of the mountain.

Saturday early dawn, everyone started packing up to travel down the trail we trod on the previous day. The trail wasn't easy since the rain caused the path to be muddy, slippery and dangerous. I had numerous falls, accidental slips, but I continued. We all continued, helping each other, trying to lift each other's spirits. Despite what happened, we could still hear laughter from each other, still positive.

On the foot of the mountain, we decided to stay on the beach for the night. Sunday, when we were on our way to travel back home, the bus broke down. So we had to wait for it to be fixed, for about 5 hours at most. But what I heard from my fellow companions were not murmurs of irritation, but words of encouragement, that ended up to doing fun stuff together to outwit the boredom creeping in.

My weekend was fun, amidst the stormy challenges we encountered.
Although there was a prepared "survival game" program by the Area officers, what we experienced in Batangas deserved to be fitted to a "reality" show. We faced off not only our own limitations, but the element of nature and circumstances.

Truly, through God nothing is impossible.
And you can always find shelter in Him in the time of storm.


So I, along with my fellow hikers, EXPLORED, EXPERIENCED and SURVIVED.

^_^

when forever's not enough

I just heard a while ago about my great-grandmother recently celebrating her birthday.Her age is 92.She is the mother of my late grandmother. Yes, Lola left this world earlier than her.

When I heard of this, I can't help but be amazed. Our relatives reported, according to my mother who was relaying the story to us, my grandmother is still strong and dreams of becoming rich. What a woman! Many will surely be envious of her, reaching that age where few have arrived. For the recent years, many have been dying at early age which saddened a lot of loved ones.

At this world, there are so many factors that can influence one's death or longevity. You cannot control your life, how long you may live or when you will exhale your last breath. But one thing is for sure, what you take in your body, what you do to your body will bear the consequences in the future. If you're careful, you might get to live that long. Yet many will say, there are still people who live a healthy life but still die early. Why, they may say? As I said, we cannot control our lives, only a Higher Being know where we're going in the years to come, what will happen to us, will we live until our 50's or maybe reach the age of 100? Despite that, it's no use getting fussy over the fact that we will reach death at the end of the crossroad. Everything has its end, no one or nothing is forever in this world. Changes always come. A race that starts will have its finish line in the end.

But I believe, no matter how everything will end for me, I will live my life to the fullest. So whenever I'm at my end, when I look back at those years, I know, I am happy and I have nothing to regret. And maybe, even if I don't reach my 90 years of life, someone will still remember me on the day I was born and the day I left the world to rest.


P.S.
It's not that I am giving the creeps, I am not really comfortable talking about death or everything. I just want myself to accept it step by step. That's why I blogged about it.

brand new day

I edited my blog and is trying to be consistent about it (snickers)..
I want a fresh start for my blog and even though there are few who ever visit this site (cheers to that!), I will still continue to write my thoughts about anything.

That's freedom, folks. Oh yeah!

And I hope, in time, I will finally reach out and touch people's hearts (oh the drama!).

laters.

quake!

Strong earthquake hits near Philippines
AP - Thursday, October 8

WASHINGTON – A strong earthquake struck south of the Philippines on Wednesday, the U.S. Geological Survey reported.

The quake had a preliminary magnitude of 6.7 and was located in the Celebes Sea, 175 miles southeast of Jolo, Sulu Archipelago, and 730 miles south of Manila. The quake hit at 5:41 p.m. EDT, or 5:41 a.m. Thursday local time.

USGS did not report any damages or injuries.(link)

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I don't know with this one, but I hope authorities are getting prepared for whatever might happen next. The country cannot afford another calamity that will add up to the damage already there from the past events (Ondoy and Pepeng).

Let's be ready and forget not to pray.

Out of the Blue I

“Will you let me court you?”

I stood dumbfounded in front of the guy who just asked me that. Meg who was with me at that time was also shocked and was silent behind my back. After a minute of silence, I smiled warily and decided to leave without a word. He stopped me, walking in front of, trying to get my attention.

“Will you stop joking around?” I finally blurted out. He was with friends of his who were all guys and were just watching us as they sat comfortably beside the store where we were already making a scene.

“I’m serious.” His face was indeed serious, but I just cannot understand what came into his mind to question me out of the blue. Honestly, we’re not even acquaintances, but yes, he is a familiar face to me.

“We’re late for class, so will you please excuse us?” I walked past him with Meg tagging along, who still seemed confused to what had just occurred.

“Do you know him?” She asked when finally we escaped the guy’s efforts of stopping us again. We hurried along outside the gate and into the campus. The siren already echoed, announcing eight o’clock in the morning.

“I’m familiar with his face, yes, but we were never acquainted.” Frowning, I tried to erase the scene from my mind as I changed the subject of our conversation. We went to our respective classes and decided to meet again for lunch.
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I was walking along the street, on my way to the apartment when I sensed that someone was following me. Thinking that my paranoia was already striking so early in the morning, I decided not to turn around to investigate. Seconds later, a shadow passed beside me but I didn’t notice at once, since my eyes were trained on my phone.

“Who is so important that you have to text?” The familiar voice prompted me to abruptly look sideways. It was that same guy who wanted to court me this morning. And when I was already forgetting what happened, he’s actually with me.

“Shut up. Leave me alone, will you?” Pissed off, I walked a bit faster, trying to push him away. He just followed me silently with that stupid smile on his face.

“I just want to talk to you, you know. You don’t have to be so hard-to-get.” He mused, smiling at me when I stopped walking and faced him.

I breathed in and out before I speak. “I don’t even know you. And who the hell are you to tell me I’m being hard-to-get? I don’t even like you tagging along with me. Just leave me alone!” Not knowing what to do next, I suddenly hit his shoulder with my clenched fist out of exasperation. He was surprised but I left him standing alone, running my way to the apartment.

I felt my tears forming in the corner of my eyes as I rushed inside my second home. Trying to relax, I sat down, at the same time, rubbing my aching forehead.

“What the hell is his problem anyway?” I muttered. What I knew about him, but still I’m not sure too, is that he is a member of a fraternity. That’s all I know about that guy since I always saw him hanging at that same store this morning with a group of guys.

A message came in my phone so I hurriedly open to read it. The message was short and it came from someone whose number is not registered in my phonebook.

I am sorry. Can you let me make up for what I did? – Howard.

I read it again and again and wondered who is Howard, and don’t want to think that he is that guy just a while ago. But it looked like he is that guy since I can’t think of a Howard who I personally knew and did something bad to me. I put the phone on the table and tried to think of what to do – reply or just leave the message alone. Before I can even decide, my phone rang and Howard is already calling.

“What?” I spat when I answered the phone, which I can’t believe I did. Maybe it was out of surprise or out of curiosity for this guy, I don’t care anymore.

“I am really sorry. I didn’t mean to piss you off. Will you go out with me for dinner tonight?” His manly voice was enticing, the invitation seemed innocent, and my irritation towards him just melted after hearing his voice on the phone. Talk about irony, so I found myself seconds after agreeing to meet him at seven in the evening. And I’ll ask him how he got my number when I realized I forgot to ask after ending the call. Wondering what will happen tonight, I mused at my stupidity while climbing upstairs to rest for a while.

Prayers to all victims of Ondoy

The typhoon Ondoy has caused a massive impact to the Philippines, especially in Metro Manila and regions of Marikina, Quezon and Rizal. In just a matter of time, people, animals, appliances and vehicles were all washed away by the raging rainstorm.


(www.timesonline.co.uk)


(news.xinhuanet.com)


(www8.gmanews.tv)

There were so many casualties, so many people who needed assistance, not only financially, but through supplies of food, water and clothing. On that fateful day that Ondoy poured its way into our lives, many were left in despair, anguish and pain. There were sacrifices made, like the story of Mr. Magallanes (May his spirit rest in peace.) who had saved more than 30 people during the rampaging storm and water current.

See this link for more details:http://www.theage.com.au/world/philippine-man-loses-own-life-after-saving-dozens-from-floods-20090928-g8o4.html">

Gratitude is what I'm feeling right now that my family is safe, we haven't experienced that much, but my heart reaches our for those who weren't that fortunate. Human is never that strong enough to withstand the power of nature, amidst studying science, calamities for how long history can tell. This helps us to be more wary, more prepared and conscious of our actions towards Mother Nature. We can never predict accurately when or how storms, landslides or tsunami will hit our country. All we have to battle them with is good preparation.

But right now, let's all work together. Through different means, let us extend whatever help we can give, may it be through walk-in donations, pledges or prayers. These victims need them. Let us give them the reason not to give up on living.

As the song goes, "The Lord's our Rock, in Him we hide, a shelter in the time of storm ..". Keep on trustin' and believing. Everything happens for a reason.


(http://carnageandculture.blogspot.com)

*For more inquires, you can visit the following sites:

http://www.google.com/landing/typhoon-ondoy.html
http://www.redcross.org.ph/Site/PNRC/wtd.aspx


(I apologize if the picture is shown incomplete)

At Your Side

THREE things that provoked me to think if I am a good friend.
THREE statements friends tell me why they don't come to me..
why they don't seek me..
and why, possibly, I don't know that much about them.

Honestly, I care too much about the answer 'coz I don't feel that I'm one when people you call your "friends" do not seem to mind at all. Or am I just being too sensitive on the matter?

1. You have so many problems already, I don't want to add to your burdens.

Isn't one purpose of a friend is someone you can unload your problems to? Then, why the heck do they refrain from talking to me? Do I have that much of an aura of someone who doesn't want to be disturbed? I know myself, I am much of a listener as well as a talker, but I do listen when someone talks. Am I not that worthy to be hearing a friend's stories, may it be problems or chitchats? I just can't help but feel bothered, even with my own brother, he doesn't get to open up with me. What hurts most is to hear stories of his life from a friend who seem to know that much. Sucks big time.

2. You're already busy, I don't want to disturb you.

Anyone can be busy. Yet, despite being busy, I can make time if you want to talk to me. At this point in my life where I don't have company in the apartment where I'm staying in, I will love the presence of a friend who will come around just to talk with me. I do appreciate the fact when I'm needed, when I know I can help someone with my own efforts. I love the idea that I'm someone they can depend on, not just to laugh with. Being with friends is an escape from the hectic life of being a student.

3. You're the stuff toy.

I've heard this from a friend, referring to my status in my high school batchmates' circle of guy friends. Why? She said it because I'm someone the guys can laugh with, joke around simply or just hang out with. I should be happy, right, but am I just that? Can't I be more than the group's stuff toy? Am I just the "clown" who just knows how to crack a joke or two? Can't they trust me with their stories or problems?

Maybe, I'm at fault in the first place.
All this time, I try to be approachable, outgoing, friendly, thoughtful and sensitive to the point that I'm willing to exert my best just to make my friends happy or okay.
Yet, as time passes, I'm feeling all left out.
Despite my efforts to reach out, to seek my friends, I don't seem to know what the hell is going on around them.
Is it because I don't ask? I'm not the type of person to insist on someone to talk unless he/she takes the initiative..
I respect their privacy.
Is it wrong to think that way?
Where the heck am I wrong anyway?

Why after all these years of being the friendly person that I am, I always feel down whenever I'm alone to think things over?
I really wonder why.

color my world -- a real outlook in life!

A surprisingly almost-correct results after taking this interesting quiz. Try it for yourself and see for yourself...

http://www.colorquiz.com/index.php
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YOUR EXISTING SITUATION
Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

YOUR STRESS SOURCES
"Avoids pressure from others and insists on developing her individual independence. Wants to make up her own mind with resistance from others or outside forces, and needs the freedom to make her own decisions. Wants to be looked at as a wise individual whose opinions are respected, and has a hard time admitting she is wrong. Can be reluctant to accept or understand other people's opinions or point of view."

YOUR RESTRAINED CHARACTERISTICS
"Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence."

"Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence."

"Feels she is not receiving her fair share and is unable to rely on anyone for support or sympathy. she keeps her emotions bottled up, leaving her quick to take offense to small things. she tries to make the best of her situation."

Current events have her feeling forced to make bargains and put aside her own desires for now. she is able to find satisfaction and happiness through sexual activity.

YOUR DESIRED OBJECTIVE
"Needs peaceful surroundings. Looking for relief from stress, conflict, and arguments. Tries to control potentially harmful situations and arguments by treading lightly. Is sensitive, emotional, and has an eye for detail."

YOUR ACTUAL PROBLEM
"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."

YOUR ACTUAL PROBLEM #2
"Prefers to be left in peace and avoids arguments, confrontation, and conflicts."

Falling in Love - Yes or No?

*This is an original article written last September 05, 2009*



If only the reality in falling in love can be taught inside the classroom, then I would not second-thought to attend that kind of class. If there can be a subject where a person can be instructed how to fall in love correctly and not to fall in love in the wrong time, then I would do everything to enrol in that course. But honestly, there aren’t that many opportunities to learn about love just within the four corners of your classroom. You get to know face-to-face what love is and learn from it when you actually become either a victim or the suspect of the “crime of falling in love”. You can never teach yourself unless you get to experience it. LOVE is such a maze you just can’t figure out. But, if we’re talking about God’s love, then it’s one different thing.

God’s love is never a question. It was there in the beginning, in our present and will last beyond our future. Many will doubt its existence but still it burns alive. Though you may be brokenhearted when your boyfriend broke up with you, but God will never leave you. You may run away from Him, but He is always there. He will never be the unforgiving lover that you once had. He will be that perfect Guy who will protect you, despite not seeing His physical presence. Few remain faithful to Him, but He never ceases to shower His love on His people. And that, is one perfect love, nothing can defeat.

So, in our case, in the worldly love we try to hold on to, there are so many conflicts. Are we sure we are with the right person? Does he really love you? Is she contented being with you? Doubts arise when we fail to be contented. When we can’t stop worrying, we start to panic and lose our confidence, not only to the person we love, but to ourselves. It’s never bad to have the benefit of the doubt, but if we push it to grow and grow, we’ll never step away from that stage. Relationships begin to falter when doubt comes in. We are not perfect so we are easily influenced by whatever thoughts swirling in our heads. Even the real definition of love becomes a blur, no one really cares, as long as they carry that piece of information that they are in love.

Before, I was in love with the thought of being in love. I always imagine myself in the arms of someone that I will call my “boyfriend”. Yet, with instances in the past of falling in love with the wrong guy, I realize that I was actually forcing myself to fall, in order to find that “someone” I will love. I never thought that I am pushing myself to a path where there is no more left or right turn. It was an eye-opener for me when I made that reassessment. Now, I am happy even if I am single. I am with good friends. And in time, I will find that LOVE waiting for me, as I wait patiently for it. But, love is actually everywhere, you can feel its warmth from your parents, siblings, best of friends or even from your pet animals. Yet, the love people find is from that person they want to cherish forever.

It’s never wrong to fall in love. It is a part of one’s life. If you have it, grab it and treasure it. If love has not come your way yet, do not force yourself to fall in love. You will never find happiness in that way. I am not your love guru, but one thing is for sure, I am not in love with the mere thought of being in love. I am actually happy now that I am not in love. Why? There are so many things to explore and I can still feel the love in my world. Maybe not from a special someone, but from people who I know will cherish me beyond words can express. And with that, I am blessed.

Getting over him is the hardest thing to do right now.

*written originally in my facebook account*
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Life has its twists and turns.

And falling in love is an experience you'll never miss.

It hurts when you see the person you fell in love with spend time together with someone else.
I do not mean to be possessive even if he is not mine, but the fact that it happened right in front of you is so DAMN PAINFUL.
I thought being "just friends" with him is enough to settle whatever feelings I have for him but it was not that easy, I realized.
A shocking revelation for me, a hurting process in the end.

Not to be exaggerated, I feel as if my chest suddenly weighed heavier than the usual. like there was this heavy anchor sitting on my heart, slowly denying blood to be pumped in and out for contraction to take place.. and eventually, heart seemed to have compeltely became numb.

The one thing that hurts me the most is that when that someone he prefers to be with has disappeared, he'll come to me, in my company. What am I some kind of a substitute? I do not assume more than that but getting my hopes up is honestly, unconsciously done.

I wish I can gradually get over him.
I hate to admit but I decide to step away from him, from being close to him (since we're becoming good friends). .

God has plans, despite the fact that I am hurting inside..
And I personally need to get stronger, hoping from another heartbreak issue in my life, I will finally learn.
Learn to accept whatever fate has in store for me.
Right now, I am just happy I have good real friends who care, even though that one person I love did not.

*drama queen*
*fever is actually in my system*

it is all about me, babe!

Latest pictures of yours truly. I just want to destress so I edited the pics in Picasa (thanks to my father's laptop). And there you go, a collage of my faces in different angles, I may say? Haha... I'm not being vain, excuse me, I'm not that pretty anyway.. Feel ko lang ilagay sa blog ko. Blog ko 'to, da ba? Hehe..

Isa pa, black-and-white tone ng picture ko nung before going to my cousin's debut. ^_^

EMO @ 5 AM

I just need to re-focus.

I need to prioritize well.

I have to put balance in my life right now.

I'm lost.

I'm sinking.

I need a lifesaver.

*sighs*

camwhores siblings

Few pictures of me and my brother when we went out to SM Molino to celebrate Father's day with our family..

I never knew my brother could be so photogenic? Haha. I just want to share our bonding experience with the mirror. Poor mirrors, victims of our vanity shoot..

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Isn't obvious we love to take pictures? We did enjoy it. Haha.

gimme more, gimme more ...

This is originally written in my multiply blog..

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"I don't wanna give up, I don't wanna give in ..."

Kasisimula palang ng first sem, bumuhos na ang mga problema..
Di ko na alam paano ibabalanse at sosolusyunan...
Eto na naman ako nag-e-emote..
Pa'no ba naman kasi, hindi ako handa, sumabog na ang bomba sa harapan ko.
Kung totoong bomba pa yun, tiyak, di na ko humihinga ngayon.

Buti nalang may mga kaibigan ako, kung hindi man kayang tumulong, handa namang makiramay sa kamalasang tinatamasa ko ...
Kung di dahil sa mga "cozy people" sa buhay ko, pinanghinaan na ko agad ng loob, first stage pa lang ng problema, sumuko na ko.
At syempre, lam ko namang sinusubukan lang ako ni Bro, sana lang makayanan ko ang hinulog nyang PAGSUBOK sa buhay ko, da ba?
Ako pa naman, iyakin..kaya eto, hapdi na naman mga mata ko, kakaiyak ..

Pagpasensyahan nyo na, outlet ko lang talaga ang pagsusulat at pagiging emotera sa blog.
Kung ayaw nyong basahin, e di wag, (o bakit nagbabasa ka pa din???) ...

I just hope, makaraos ako dito..
Tulad nga ng fave kong kanta ..
"God will make a way, when there seems to be no way ..."

Bro, help me!!!!!!

Lovin' my Summer

So many things happened to me this summer and I didn't even have the time to blog it out. I'll just post some pics to summarize 'em all up.

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-Area 10 Sportsfest held in AUP Grounds: This is where friendship among the churches of our district bloomed to the highest level..



-We went to Masbate for a clan reunion of Daddy's family side. It was my first time to set foot on this province. We also stayed overnight in Bugtong Island where my Dad was born.



-Straight from Masbate, I went to Bohol but not with my own family, but with my Grandpa's family. I stayed for almost 2 wks there, celebrated Candijay's fiesta and explored the wonders of their beach. It was pure fun!



-District's overnight retreat in Tanza, Cavite: It was a rainy retreat for everyone but it was still fun. Youth got to be closer to one another, at least..Cheers for LCD 1 youth.

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That's it. Hard to summarize in words, but my summer is filled with so many revelations, unforgettable memories that I will cherish forever. Here are some extra pictures - my own photographic snapshots..






Lovin' it! And I'm even bitten by the Love Bug, haha! =)

falling for someone?

This is originally written in my multiply site.
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I met this guy.

Actually, I've known him already before, it's just that I finally get to be closer to him just recently.

Right now, he's all in my mind.

My friends can't help but notice my 'crazy-huge' smiles every time I talk about him or whenever I receive text messages from him.

It's true that when one door closes, another opens to new opportunities.

Sad thing is, he's already in a relationship.

And even if I discovered about it, I still like him.

Even if he is younger than me, I like him. My feelings didn't change.

But I know I have to set my own limitations to restrain myself from hurting too much.

I know the feeling of falling in and out of love.

And I hardly learn from what I've gone through before.

I am just letting God work His wonders, whatever He has in store for me, I'll wait.

But if it is this guy, then maybe he'll let him see that I'm just here.

If I'm in love with him, I can't admit yet. I'm on the edge and I don't know what to do.

To move forward or to back up.

But as of now, I'll treasure the friendship we have finally developed from the past days.

And that alone, I am happy. :)

from Yoshke :)

I got this interesting idea from a friend, Yoshke. And this turned out to be hilarious! :)

*google your first name into Google plus the word 'needs' and put in quotes. For example, (your name) needs. It is easy, then just post the 10 results and tag friends who will think this will be fun. I think it's fun, thanks Yoshke!

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1. Noah needs TO STOP BY MY PLACE AND PICK THE DOGS UP.
- I know I love dogs, but when was I a dog-sitter? Hehe.

2. Noah needs A PERMIT.
- for what? (thinks)

3. Noah needs PRAYERS TODAY.
- I really need 'em. My family needs them.

4. Noah needs YOUR DEMOS.
- Alright, show them to me! Now! :)

5. Noah needs TO MEET MY MAMA.
- My boyfriend's mama? Haha.

6. Noah needs A NEW WEBMASTER AND WEB MAINTENANCE CONTRACTOR.
- wow, bigtime!

7. Noah needs MORE TRAFFIC.
- Oh no, I don't! tsk tsk...

8. Noah needs A BAILOUT.
- not good. hehe...

9. Noah needs TO BUILD ANOTHER ARK.
- I like this one! Give me some time people! Haha.

10. Noah needs MORE ENERGY TO PLAY ROLE.
- somehow, I'm always feeling sleepy lately.

Into Deep

A bit informative results from an interesting quiz. Why don't you try it out too?

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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Salute Graduates!

It's the March-April season once again, and that means Graduation fever has swept over the nation. It would have swept me off my feet too if I am one of the graduates to march in the UPLB Freedom Park. But sadly, I am not YET graduating for the year. Well, hopefully next year you'll hear the GOOD NEWS from me. Right now, I'll just be focusing on taking up the remaining 15 units left in my course. And by October, I'm done. Yes, I really hope that I'll be done by that time.

My friends, high school batchmates and fellow Biology students back in UPLB are on their way to wearing their toga this late April and accept their diplomas. I am so happy for them. I'm regretting a bit that I haven't performed well and isn't graduating on time, but I'm just thinking there's a purpose. And people do mistakes, that's how they learn and grow. My dreams never falter, even if I am not graduating on time. I'll still be pursuing Medicine and years from now, I will be a successful doctor, no matter what.

So that means, student still for the next 5-6 years. Yeah, I know, some say it is tiring, but I don't care. I am passionate to be a doctor. That's why I'm composing myself to do better. Not to repeat the same mistake again. Then, one day, I'll graduate ON TIME and a doctor-to-be. That will be the BEST-est NEWS ever.

I know my parents will be soooo glad. And so am I.

But for now, CONGRATULATIONS to the GRADUATES of year 2009! God bless. . . =)

I'm Coming Out

I am okay already, regarding the issue of the past entry. Although, I haven't personally open up the issue to the person involved, I decided it will be better put off in the past. I am used to her already, maybe I am just shocked to what happened. i forgive her. I forgive myself. I can yield to my emotions too fast.

On the other hand, it's already finals week. And I am fervently wishing that I won't be in the list of students who will be required to take a final exam in one of my major subjects. I accept my fate in Chemistry, since it's known, even beforehand that I will be taking that exam. Aside from that, it is a NO NO NO to other subjects.

I want to rest. I still haven't process the papers of my change of plan. I should be having Sp and BIO 101 this summer. The petition for the latter subject is not yet on the roll, so I am a bit nervous about that. I hope I managed to get them both registered this summer, that I can maximize the time for the remaining units this coming first semester.

O well, I am supposed to graduate this April but I am not on the list. Haha. I know, I am delayed, I still got 15 units more to cover before I can say I am officially donw with my undergraduate life. And the graduation march will most probably take place, next year. Oh yeah.

I haven't reviewed for NMAT and I can't help but get anxious about it. It is my first take but I wish I can garner a high percentile rank so that I don't need to take another this December. The fee is a bit expensive, so I'd rather do well in this first one. I really wish I can continue to Medicine next year. It has been my aspiration and flicker of hope to go on with my life. I want to be a doctor. Simple as it may sounds, but it is complicated, I know.

I need to rest so I have stop blabbering about stuff. Summer is kickin' in. And it is really getting hot, I wonder if I can manage to wear skimpy and light clothes this year? Haha. I wish.

why did you have to hurt me so?

I AM A BIT PISSED OFF.

I CAN'T HELP IT. I HAD TO LET IT OUT.

I CAN FEEL TEARS ON MY FACE.

IS IT WRONG TO DECLINE FROM SOMETHING THEY KNOW I'M NOT USED TO DOING?

OKAY. THE FACT THAT I AM DRINKING HAS BEEN LET OUT. BUT HEY, I'M JUST A BEGINNER.

I DON'T DRINK THAT MUCH TOO.

SO I HOPE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND IF I HAVE THE NERVE TO DECLINE AN OFFER.

ESPECIALLY AT TIMES THAT I CAN'T AFFORD GETTING DRUNK AND HAVING A HANGOVER THE NEXT

DAY.

OKAY. THANKS FOR THE OFFER. THANKS FOR THE THOUGHT OF INVITING ME OVER, THINKING THAT I COULD HAVE BEEN FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF FOR NOT BEING INVITED.

BUT I TOLD YOU. IT'S OKAY. I DON'T HAVE ANY PLANS OF GOING OUT. I HAVE STUFF TO DO. YEAH, I KNOW I NEED TO RELAX, BUT ALCOHOL WON'T BE IN THE LIST.

I SUPPOSED YOU SHOULD HAVE UNDERSTOOD BETTER. YOU'RE A FRIEND. I KNOW IT WAS JUST A JOKE WHEN YOU SHOUTED 'FOUL' WORDS ON ME, BUT STILL THAT HURTS.

THAT ONLY PUSHES ME FAR FROM THE CROWD WHERE YOU ARE CURRENTLY IN. I DON'T WANT. AND I DON'T FORCE MYSELF INTO YOUR GROUP. SO PLEASE UNDERSTAND.

SIGHS.

I JUST FEEL SO DOWN AFTER. THERE ISN'T ANY BETTER WAY TO HURT ME LIKE YOU DID.

blah..blah..blah

What should I write?

I do not know what to talk about right now.

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I have two exams this week. Same subject - Aquaculture.

It's the last day of medication for me tomorrow.

My body hurts. I do not know why, especially my behind. Sighs.

I just played badminton last Saturday night and when I woke up the next day, I can't walk properly.

I did some warm-up routines so I'm quite confused why my body is aching so much!

One last week of classes then finals week. And soon, it's break time from academics.

NMAT o9 is nearing and I'm not yet reviewing for it. Damn.

I think I'm not employed in the job I sought after for the past days. But at least I tried and gave it my best.
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I believed my summer will be wonderful. I won't be excited lest it won't happen for me.

pag-ibig nga kaya??? (ano daw?!?!!?!)

This is actually an original blog entry from my Multiply Account. :)

(and in fairness, first ko atang entry dito na halos puro Tagalog, hehe)
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(naisip ko ito habang tinatahak ng bus na sinasakyan ko ang kahabaan ng SLEX Hi-way)

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Bakit mahirap umasa?

Dahil ba alam mong walang mararating ang pag-asam mo sa isang bagay?

O sadyang tanggap mo na hindi kailanman mapagbibigyan ang tangi mong hiling?

Hindi naman sa pagiging negatibo.

Pero, diba, pag alam mo namang hindi mapupunta sa'yo, bakit mo pa ipagpipilitan?

Kung alam mong hindi siya talaga para sa'yo, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ang sarili mo?

DI pa ba sapat ang iparamdam sa'yo na di ka kailangan?

Hindi masama mangarap, kung alam mong may patutunguhan ang pangarap mo.

Masakit ang umasa kung sa una palang, talo ka na.

Mas masakit kung nasa rurok ka na ng munti mong mga panaginip, para lang masilayan mo ang pagtulak sa'yo pabalik sa realidad.

Totoo naman kasi. If it's not meant for you, then it will never be.

Kaya ako, ayoko umasa. Ni isipin man lang na may pagkakataon, di ko magawa.

Alam ko namang walang kahahantungan ang gagawin ko.

Kung ano man ang gagawin ko, sa'kin na yun..

'The heart is indeed fragile. Once broken, it takes time to put back the pieces, but it can never be whole again.'

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Di ako brokenhearted. Di ako heartbroken. Kung anumang tama sa dalawa.
Naisip ko lang bigla. Di kasi ako makatulog sa biyahe, masyadong malakas ang ihip ng hangin.

help me breathe!

Doctor: You are diagnosed with URTI.

I watched her as she wrote it in the medical certificate - upper respiratory tract infection. The same ailment I was diagnosed with the last time I came to be checked up. So what is really URTI? Is this a chronic disease that needs to be cured instantly or a common sickness prevailing among immunodeficient individuals?

The respiratory tract is the most common site for infection by pathogens. What are pathogens? Pathogens are famously known as germs that can cause disease or illness to the host. Although the human body's respiratory system houses normal flora organisms which are beneficial, there are still potential pathogens which invade the system and eventually trigger disease or ailment. Upper respiratory tract infections may result from this colonization of invasive and infectious agents. You can experience common cold, influenza and/or sore throat.

In my situation, I have (I'm writing at the same time I'm having URTI) sore throat and common cold. Common cold includes symptoms ranging from coughing, sneezing and runny nose that can also lead to congestion, headache and sore throat. Unfortunately, I am experiencing all. Yes. And that is not a good feeling, actually. It is difficult to fall asleep when you have a hard time breathing. It is an effort to study and read your notes when your head aches once in a while. And you can't even concentrate on something when you have to dash for a tissue or hanky to wipe your nose! But thankfully, I'm not yet doom to have flu symptoms since I do not have fever. If you are reading this and experiencing such, then continue reading...

Treatment for URTI is simple - plenty of rest and fluids. Drink water a lot. Tuck in your bed early and wear out those fatigue bones in your body. Take in the medicine prescribed by the doctor, but know that these over-the-counter drugs will not lessen the duration of infection. These will only give you a temporary relief from the pain that you're going through. Also, it is advisable to gargle lukewarm water with salt. I was prescribed to use Betadine gargle and despite the taste, I have to admit, it helps my sore throat issue. Whenever you feel symptoms of URTI, do not be afraid to consult your doctor. It is never that bad to be checked up once in a while.

Despite it all, an ounce of prevention is much better than a pound of cure. Make sure you get lots of rest and fluids. It is a much nicer feeling of being healthy and away from such illnesses.

Live a happy life - longer and healthier! =)

career orientation

INTELLECT: Scientist
EMOTIONS: Instructor
SKILLS: Nurturer
DYNAMISM: Grafter

Your Core Skills

You are a natural communicator with high levels of emotional intelligence and strong leadership skills. An analytical thinker with an innovative streak, you thrive at facilitating group discussions. You will work long and hard if you are inspired by a project.
Potential Areas Of Weakness

You have a tendency to value your own ideas over those of your colleagues and sometimes may need to work harder to make team members feel valued and involved. At the same time, you are very sensitive and sometimes take criticism personally. There is a chance that you become so involved in your work that personal organisation and time management suffer.
Areas You Might Want To Work On

* focus on developing your listening and empathy skills - this is a crucial part of being a good leader
* make a conscious effort to plan your time using structured personal management skills
* actively allow and welcome criticism

Careers That May Suit You

banker entrepreneur journalist business executive marketing account director
Your Detailed Personality Assessment

You have shown yourself to be a natural people-person and to have a real gift in bringing out the best in others. But have you asked yourself recently how much you are able to truly shine and grow in your everyday life at the moment? Satisfaction for you seems to lie in having positive enriching interactions with those around you. You are a strong communicator so make sure that you are communicating the best of yourself in order to achieve your dreams.

When it comes to leadership, empathy is your real forte. You are extremely supportive to your colleagues and able to bring out the best in them.

You have a strong sense of wonder and enchantment at the world around you. You probably get a kick out of blue sky brainstorming.

As far as you're concerned, hard work is the best way to achieve your goals. Short cuts to success are just a false economy. You tend to be quite traditional in your perspective and like to have a clear sense of your career milestones. You believe that effort should be rewarded and that if you put in the hours you'll reap the benefits. However that doesn't mean you always follow your own wisdom. It can be hard to maintain intense levels of focus all the time.

You seem to be in a bit of a hectic place in your life right now. There are lots of opportunities and things that you're interested in, but it's quite hard to know what to focus on. You could probably use a bit of guidance to help you channel your energies in the right way. It's not surprising you're feeling fraught. Work is taking over your life and it seems that things may be starting to get on top of you. You could really use some time and space to think.

The way you approach each day can have huge implications for your success in the workplace. Bouncing out of bed with a spring in your step doesn't exactly come naturally to you. You sometimes find it difficult to get moving in the mornings. It might be worth trying to reinvigorate your morning routine so that getting out of bed is more of a pleasure than a battle! That way you can face the day firing on all cylinders. If you haven't already, why not try exploring some evening relaxation techniques that might help you get the rest you need - whether it's yoga, a soak in the tub or even a full-on gym session. It could make all the difference.
The Future

You may still be a student but you're smart to be thinking ahead and checking out your career options. You're about to embark on a really exciting time in your life - and there's going to be lots of decisions to make that will shape your future. Life an feel like a bit of an endurance race sometimes. It's all about making sure that you have the stamina and commitment to go the distance. You seem to be quite pragmatic about the fact that work has its ups and downs, and this is a really healthy way to be, as long as this doesn't dampen your natural enthusiasm for life.

*Thanks to Youniverse.com

*Something to ponder about, something about what career should I take, where I'll be best suited in, and what kind of personality I am in a world of career.

REST is what I need.

I am so tired.

I just finished my term paper for Biomed.

And I have to do a powerpoint presentation for my report on the same paper.

My report is due this Tuesday.

Hell yeah.

I'm in for a tiring week.

Two exams this coming Friday.

I want to relax.

Oh, I remember! Good thing I went with my friends to stay in a resort the other night.

It was a relaxing night for me.

All I did is swim, swim swim. Oh and I also ate and then swim again. And also sang in the videoke.

I need another like that after this semester.

Tired. Tired. Tired.

My fingers are already numb from typing.

My back is sore from sitting upright.

My head is aching from thinking too much.

My eyes are getting blurrier than before from looking at my laptop's screen the whole day until now.

Rest is what I need.

I guess, I'll have to resort to dreaming.

I hope I will have a nice dream when I crawl into my bed later.

That will be sweet.

a letter of confusion

Dear Lala,
I don't really know how to tell you this,I'm selling myself for candy. I think I realized it When I quoted Forrest Gump In your car and I saw you Carve your initials into My salt-beef bucket. I'm sure you're Middle-class enough to understand That your Ford sucks. I'm returning Your toe ring to you, but I'll keep Your glass eye as a memory. You should also know that I Told my psychiatrist about the bruises and I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon.

Kiss my butt,
Noah

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Weird isn't it? I discovered this in my friend's blog and I did what was instructed there - how to produce this kind of letter. It's fun :).

If you want and you're curious enough. Check the directions below.

Here's how you do it:
Dear (someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),
Name

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

It's fun.

Got me smilin' afterwards.

And Lala is a friend, I don't think she'll be mad at this, though.

Initials

You Are Clever and Studious

When You Are Comfortable: You are philosophical and opinionated. You have quite a few pet causes, and you're always adopting a new one. People see you as clever and smart. You now a lot, and you love to talk about a variety of subjects. When You Are At Your Best: You are a carefree, adventurous person. You love excitement, and you enjoy being in a changing, dynamic environment. People find you to be funny, generous, and competent. You're well spoken, and you know how to wow people with your words. When You Are in a Social Setting: You are open-hearted and harmonious. You are a giving person, and you are always willing to listen to people. People find you to be incredibly kind, sympathetic, and loyal. You can always be counted on.

What Do Your Initials Say About You?

Swirling thoughts

-I'm now officially addicted to the songs 'Crush' and 'My life would suck without you' by David Archuleta and Kelly Clarkson, respectively.

-I will be trying to FINISH my term paper and my powerpoint presentation this weekend for my Biomed reporting (sighs).

-I missed swimming and I'm glad I accepted the invitation of my friends to go to a resort. I enjoyed it very much.

-I am confused. Someone's presence is confusing me and a disturbing "issue" is really disturbing me. In short, I'm not only confused, I'm also disturbed.

-I didn't go home this weekend AGAIN. I miss our home and my family and our dogs and my cats.

-I want to eat already. I am terribly hungry but I don't have food yet.

-I am starting another story and I hope by this time I get to finish this one. I have so many unfinished stories! (sighs)

-I am craving for some ice cream, pasta and pizza - yet I have to stop myself from indulging to my cravings and wasting too much money.

-I am feeling stupid for deleting one of the sent embryology files of my classmate in my email's inbox account. Now I have to tell my friend to re-send but I have to wait till tonight.

-I want to crawl back into bed and just sleep.

-I want to lose weight. Haha.

-I want a new dress, shoes and book.

-I hope I could pass my Chem 160's 4th exam. Damn.

Sign here!

Actually this was originally written last March 03, 2009.
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Having an autograph back in my younger years is fun. You give it to your friends to be answered and be delighted with whatever they wrote in there. It’s not only the celebrity and famous people who get to sign an autograph, but even in our own circle of friends, we can experience writing on an autograph. So what were those familiar questions on that special book? Let me refresh your memory as I try to re-do the usual queries when you open an autograph.

Of course, the usual first page will include the basic information about the person who will be answering, like name, nickname, age, birthday, birth address, school, etc. But, the next half of the page will include inquiries of the person’s favorites, interests, likes and dislikes. So here it goes.

Hobbies: Reading books, writing anything – may it be stories or lyrics of a song, surfing the net, sketching clothes
Favorite Color: BLUE, a bit of Pink and Green (specifically, Apple Green)
Favorite Book: Echoes, Angels Among Us
Favorite Author: Danielle Steel, Arthur Maxwell
Favorite Actor/Actress: Anne Hathaway, Dakota Fanning
Favorite TV Show: Gossip Girl, CSI
Favorite Movie: What a Girl Wants, Parents’ Trap, Princess Diaries and Hairspray
Favorite Song: This is what Dreams are made of, Breathless
Favorite Band/Singer: Mariah Carey, Celine Dion
Favorite Food: Isis’ Chicken Penne Salad, Shanghai Rolls, KFC’s Oriental Bowl
Favorite Drinks: Yakult, Iced Coffee Latte (Nescafé), Four Seasons-flavored Drink
Likes: Books, Sweet-sounding music, Family get-together, Food
Dislikes: People who are TOO frank, TOO demanding and BIG liars/users
Motto: (before) What is beauty if the brain is empty?
(now) What cannot kill you, will only make you stronger.
Dream in Life: I want to be a doctor, a successful one, with my own clinic in my mother’s province. I also dream to be a well-established author of a book (can’t decide yet if medical-inclined).

See? I remember before, I can’t always decide which is which will be my favorite movie or show, or even the food and book. Funny, now I can almost write at once what are my favorites. Proceeding to the next page of the autograph, if you recall, will be the page of the ‘more personal’ data about the person. And, this is where rumors and teasing will result from, since questions such as ‘Who is your crush?’ and ‘Who is your first love?’ are interesting information to digest.

Describe yourself: I am not that tall, almost 5 feet. I used to have long black hair, but now I have it shoulder-length. Brown eyes and brown skin – typical Filipina features.
Define LOVE: Love is special – it connects lives and sets apart differences.
Who is your CRUSH? I do not have a crush at this moment (honestly).
Have you ever been IN LOVE? Yes.
Who is your FIRST LOVE? The one I fell in love with for the first time – Drew.
What are his/her qualities you like? Big sense of humor and thoughtfulness
Are you two compatible? I don’t think so. He doesn’t want a girl who is a friend to be in love with him, so he walked out of my life.
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Happiest Moment: Each moment I laughed with no constraints or limits – I’m happy.
Most Embarrassing Moment: I mistook a friend’s twin sister as her and I didn’t really believe it at first. I was insisting that she is my friend but she really isn’t. At that time, I didn’t know my friend has a twin sister. She even showed me her school ID and a friend of hers proved me wrong and in front of so many students. Embarrassing!
Greatest Achievement in Life: Graduating valedictorian in our high school batch

These inquiries really struck a nerve in me. Good, I’m done with these questions. But really, it is no wonder people will flock to see your answers and start issues regarding that. The last page is the Dedication page, where you write anything you want to the owner of the autograph. Of course, this page is the most special to the one in possession of the autograph, for she can read and re-read all those sweet notes by her/his friends for her/him.

I just thought of this – do boys also possess autographs? I haven’t encountered back in my elementary and high school days, so I do not know with other people. I mostly see female students, armed with their well-decorated autographs, for their friends to sign.

AUTOGRAPHS – Remembering them brings back memories of the past. They may be memories filled with happiness or sadness, but still part of who we are right now. If you ever encountered your autograph once again while cleaning your old closet, sit back and open it. You’ll never know what surprises are waiting for you again, as you flip those worn pages, filled with notes of people who have been part of your life.

another side of me

I am proud to say that I am a Seventh-Day Adventist. Although I am not strictly studying the word of God, I have learned much in the course of my life. And with that I realize, why don't I share what I know, even as to inspire the hearts of possible readers online, local and abroad. I remember someone said, "Why don't we use the technology to spread the truth, rather than lazing around doing nothing." He is right, and that's why I made another blog. I entitled it HEAVENLY TESTIMONIALS. I am not saying I am the holiest girl alive, but I want to use my time and capability of writing to share notes, verses, stories, lessons I learned, encountered as I live being with my God, being with my religion.

I hope visitors who accidentally bumped into my personal blog will have time to reflect and read this newly established blog of mine.

Thank you. God bless!

-> heavenatlast.blogspot.com

crush

Crush is a term fondly given to someone you like. It may either be a secretive or obvious liking of the opposite sex, or can be the same sex, for some.

But, I won't be talking about my 'crush'. Funny, I do not have one at this moment, though. I'll be just listing things that I personally like. Or maybe, I can include animals, people... just check 'em out!

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I simply adore butterflies, especially if they exhibit BLUE color. I just can't get enough of them. I find it interesting to just watch them flutter around you, minding their own lives.

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Angels. I refer to them as my personal guardians. I feel protected and assured knowing and believing they do exist and are with me always. I have experienced cases where I felt my guardian angel saving me, protecting me , with a swish of her/his fluffy wings and touch of her/his gentle hands. Still can't decide if my angel is a he or she. Sorry =D

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Watching this stethoscope draped on a doctor's shoulders. I've always imagined myself, walking along the corridors of a hospital, clad in white, with my very own stethoscope. Also, with an attached stuff toy. (laughs) It's not that obvious I really do want to be a doctor. I like mine to be either pink or blue!

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If ever I will have children, I'd rather have TWINS. Yes. A boy and a girl, and I'll be contented. There's an 'if', since I do not know when that would possibly happen. I would have to pursue my career and be successful first. =D

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I like and appreciate water. All bodies of water. I love to swim. I love to frolick against the waves. I like the feelings of being summoned by the great ocean, or showered by the pretty falls. I wish I have time and money to venture on a trip to all beaches, falls and rivers...etc., there is! It would be fun!!!

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I like to find the one for me. Someday. Someone who will cherish me for the rest of his lives. And will understand the path of career that I will take. Or if not, someone who will be my true best of friend. Someone who won't leave me because she/he has her/his own love life to take care of about.

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I like books. As in, I'm totally addicted to reading once I grabbed one. You won't get a decent conversation with me if I'm actually reading a book. So, if you want to give me gifts on my birthdays and Christmas celebrations. . I'll be happy to receive books from you =)

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Seriously, I am getting sleepy, so I have to end this first. Tsk!

my life would suck without you

FACTION.

In political terms, FACTION is a grouping of individuals, within a political organization, with a political purpose (www.wikipedia.com). In simple words, faction is a group of people sharing the same belief or holding on to the same agenda or motives. I also read, that some factions are loose organizations, with no definitive list of members. while on the other hand there exist factions bearing strong internal structure and official positions for its list of members.

When a faction rises in a group of people, this means a new group is arising, with different thoughts against what is intended for the original group. And that means, there will be partitions of opinions, differences of decisions and plans. And what is the result - divided organization.

Globally, and even locally, this is not a new notion, since there are many cases of growing factions within an organization or existing parties. And we have been, if not part of it, victims of the consequences of such events. In government situation, existence of factions contribute to endless conflicts within the officials, and thus, the environment for them is not conducive anymore for a peaceful convergence of ideas and plans for the welfare of the people they serve. And what do we get in return, continuous trials and cases of impeachments, graft and corruption, and unfinished projects for the country and the hopeful citizens. Is this what we deserve for placing these people in their positions? Will we let them form their own factions just for their own personal and "powerful" benefits? Then, why don't we examine our lives and observe our surroundings. Do these factions not exist around us? Do they not start even within small groups such as class or even social organizations?

I have been a witness to this certain factions and what they lead to, afterwards. Factions even exist in families, where some members of the family grouped together against some fellow family relatives. Will this be helpful? I think not. This will only increase bickerings and pursuit for more arguments. Once a united stronghold, now a divided clan. Do we want that? A family is supposed to be united. And once we are in a class, or in an organization, we recognize these people we are with as new family members. The assurance of unity, through thick and thin, we expect the best and the worst together. But once the family is broken, factions arise, you can just observe how fast the people within the group will start to lose trust and connection. You do not know who to trust to anymore. You do not know if you're teaming up with this faction or the other one. A group is now divided into subgroups, just like a classification phylogeny where a family will be subdivided into genera. Although they are in the same family, they now exist as separate factions. And that is a sad thing.

Unity is essential. You cannot achieve something as a group if the members are not united. When you have a goal in focus, despite the differences that lie within each individual within the group, once you have the same motive, the group will succeed in reaching that goal. Take the case of the Fall of Jericho, as written in the Bible. The Israelites marched "together" around the building, blowing their horns and singing, and through God's power and their unity, Jericho crumbled down.

There is a common saying "United we stand, divided we fall", together we will not crumble easily, but as divided factions, a group/family/organization will easily come tumbling down.

Just like in our country, all we need is unity. If we want these turmoil to end, we have to be at one, to be standing on the same ground, believing in the same cause, or else, our country will just continue embarking on a lifetime dependency for survival, hanging on that thin line of hope for the future.

And for us, let us not forget. No man is an island. Yes, once you are part of a group, cooperate. Be united. No factions. No hidden motives.

We could have a peaceful life when that happens. I know. And I believe, you also think so. :)