pissed.sad.hurt.

damn.

i just physically assaulted my brother.

he can be so irritating to the point of being unnervingly hostile.

sighs.

why must i endure the bad judgment later on then?

isn't it me always being reprimanded here?

i was never properly appreciated - even just in small account, that would be very nice.

sometimes, i wish i could fly away and find my secret haven where i can feel secured and safe.

sometimes, i wanted to forget everything, to have amnesia or to sleep unnerved by everyone else.

i'm always in pain.always lost.always hurt.but do they notice it? no,even if i'm seen as transparent as a clear plastic.

maybe if i'll doze this off, i can let it go eventually.

yeah, maybe, eventually.

picasa - wow

i saw it before in my father's laptop but i never opened it, even though i was curious what the heck is this program for.then, my friend who got her new laptop showed me some pictures she edited through picasa and i was amazed.it's user-friendly and you can edit your pictures with instant awesome results.nice!
so here's some of my first pics in the list which i edited, in response to my enthusiasm to try it out.

LOADED..no time for rest

i really don't know how to manage to do everything especially those required for the next three days of my student life..

i'm confused..

i hardly slept soundly last night since i stayed up late, reviewing for my examination tomorrow, which until now, i'm not yet done.

and there's still a pile of school works to do..
my head's getting heavier each second that counts..

i can't even breathe a little to relax..

sighs..

online registration for summer classes 2008

wow. it's near end of another semester and the beginning of summer classes for the year 2008..
it's a continuous struggle of a student to carry on with his/her obligations.. even if it means letting go of your summer plans in a faraway island or travel across countries...
yep, you can't lose the opportunity to take subjects which can help you lessen your load for the next semesters and give you hope of not being delayed. \

well, Godbless, since subjects are limited for the summer..

and that's where my problem lies..

tsk.

few weeks to go

it's nearing the end of another semester..

lots of pressure..

school works..

tons of requirements..

tsk..

i wish i could pass all my subjects for this sem..

goodbye to a canine friend..

[same blog written in multiply account]

one of our dogs passed away last wednesday, almost five in the evening..

i just learned of it a while ago, and that prompted me to write something.

i will miss him - non-breed dog, but known for his flexibility in getting himself inside narrow spaced railings and for being panicky whenever fireworks could be heard.

i will miss his bouncing brown and white fluffy body coming to meet me as i stepped off the tricycle, announcing that i have arrived home.

i will be always reminded of the many sabbath days that he is present, attending church with the whole family.

once a baby, grew up in our custody and now left us already..

but memories of him will still be burning alive deep within our hearts.

rest well clipper.rest well.

my bioclock went confused

we had our org's finals last friday (feb 29) and our ornithology's fieldtrip yesterday (march 1)... to think that i was awake the whole evening of friday's and then went to the fieldtrip after just taking a bath and changing clothes!!..

so the result?

i was dead asleep in the bus, all throughout the travel...
tsk.

and i was having this heaviness in my head, leading to headache.

and we didn;t have nay stopover to have lunch?!?!?!?!

not so good.

when we were back in elbi, we went straight to McDo to eat.
then as i was back in the apartment, i lied down on my bed. i slept from seven in the evening until 2 in early morning!!!! i haven't changed my clothes and i left the lights on!

that's why this morning, up until now, i am quite experiencing dizziness...


:(

p.s the poicture was taken in avilon zoo..