It was fun and toxic at the same time.
FUN, because I get to spend time with cozy people and the section I got to be included in are all nice people.
I mean, they're approachable despite that most of them are really "geniuses in their own rights", they are still "approachable".
TOXIC, because it's not as light as undergraduate studies...you are responsible of whatever's discussed and NOT discussed.
No more distinct spoon-feeding, well, aside from few of the professors, but mainly, you have to be always prepared for the worst.
Thankfully, I have good background of the subjects I am taking now, from my BS Biology days, esp. from my Major subjects.
Well, honestly, I can go with the flow but I am not THAT fast to explain stuff, unlike my other classmates (mostly guys).
Yung tipong pagtanong mo, kaya nilang mabigyan kaagad ng sagot.
It makes me feel inferior or somewhat stupid, in a sense.
But I still strive to know what they know, to know more than what they know, or to know more together with them.
I'm not up fo a competition, I'm in the medschool to learn and to be a good doctor for the sake of my future patients.
I don't want to be pressured just because I should not "taint" my family's name.
I will study well for my future, for my chosen career and for the big dreams I only dreamt childishly before.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Day 2-4 of Project 365
Late posts. Oh well.
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Day 2 - Jolie and me, Happy Together
An unexpected friend, someone like me who talks a lot, laughs a lot, crazy enough to talk to me. She's the daughter of my dad's distant cousin who is helping me with my medschool problems. She is really nice, a 12-year old who is very curious and mature at the same time. We actually played in SM Manila's amusement parks the entire afternoon last Tuesday.
Day 3 - Buns, buns, buns
My mom put up this food sale at home, aside from our regular sari-sari store. We sell burger and hotdog sandwiches, fruit shakes, kikiam, fishball and french fries. It's a reminder that summer has been filled with these kind of food every afternoon.
Day 4 - Kapatid
It's a snapshot of my brother overlooking the field in PLM (Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila). He accompanied me there for my interview because I'm not a confident girl when it comes to traveling, esp. to Manila. He seemed "enticed" with the environment, muttering how he would want to study there.
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Day 2 - Jolie and me, Happy Together
An unexpected friend, someone like me who talks a lot, laughs a lot, crazy enough to talk to me. She's the daughter of my dad's distant cousin who is helping me with my medschool problems. She is really nice, a 12-year old who is very curious and mature at the same time. We actually played in SM Manila's amusement parks the entire afternoon last Tuesday.
Day 3 - Buns, buns, buns
My mom put up this food sale at home, aside from our regular sari-sari store. We sell burger and hotdog sandwiches, fruit shakes, kikiam, fishball and french fries. It's a reminder that summer has been filled with these kind of food every afternoon.
Day 4 - Kapatid
It's a snapshot of my brother overlooking the field in PLM (Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila). He accompanied me there for my interview because I'm not a confident girl when it comes to traveling, esp. to Manila. He seemed "enticed" with the environment, muttering how he would want to study there.
Monday, May 24, 2010
DAY 1 - The Drawing of a Girl
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I love to doodle.
I love to just draw anything that comes to mind especially when I get hold of any paper and writing material.
And this, is the product of my "artistic" side when I was lounging inside my father's office.
Honestly, my dad's laughing at me and what I'm doing because he's not mocking me, but amused at his 21-year old daughter, drawing something like this.
Oh yes.
I know it's childish, but who cares.
I'm all-smiles when I finally finished this one.
It's actually whole body, minus the shoes of the girl, but I decided to take a shot of the upper half instead.
This is what I can do, I can draw somewhat a girl.
I know I'm not the very gifted artist like other people out there, but I still can draw.
I'm happy with that.
Day 1 of Project 365 - May 24, 2010
PROJECT 365
I decided to start off with this interesting project, a journal of captured moments each day of my life, for a year.
It's not for mere entertainment, but for the essence of putting up this collection which will reflect back everything that happened to me for a year.
I chose to publish this photo here in my personal blog and in my tumblr blog.
Life is full of treasured memories.
I want to look back and see evidences of these moments I had in my life.
What better way is by making use of my handy camera and take that special shot.
^_^
It's not for mere entertainment, but for the essence of putting up this collection which will reflect back everything that happened to me for a year.
I chose to publish this photo here in my personal blog and in my tumblr blog.
Life is full of treasured memories.
I want to look back and see evidences of these moments I had in my life.
What better way is by making use of my handy camera and take that special shot.
^_^
Saturday, May 22, 2010
of June and Raph
I don't know them personally.
Yet, they seem to be part of the missing pieces in my life.
Cheesy much, but seriously, I'm really happy I've been fated to meet them.
Although we happened to be online buddies, contented for now in chatting, I'm always excited to see them online.
They make me smile, laugh and just treat me as if they've also known me for so long.
They're the kind of people I missed growing up with, the friends I wanted to be with.
It' a fair chance that I met them separately but I never thought they are actually connected (their hearts are).
June.
She's witty, funny and pretty.
She has this strong personality despite the very being she has grown up with.
She inspires me to live, to feel contented, to feel blessed.
I love her, completely and no, I'm no lesbian or else Raph is the one strangling me.
Haha.
Raph.
He's the horny little Frenchie who is my pseud0 big brother, I wish he's the real one.
He's nice, sings good (I've seen his youtube performance), very sweet and French.
Oh, did I forget he's an ultimate Frenchie hunk?
Yes, he is.
June is one lucky bitch. (giggles)
Okay.
I'm just saying I am blessed I have them now in my life, though not in physical aspect.
They made me feel less alone.
And with that, meeting them is a gift I won't trade with anyone else.
If I get to travel the world in the distant future, I'll make sure to meet them, hug them and show them the happiness they've evoke in me.
I love you June and Raph.
This is my crappy but cheesy, oh and heartfelt tribute letter to the both of you.
And no, the two are alive and kicking.
:)
Yet, they seem to be part of the missing pieces in my life.
Cheesy much, but seriously, I'm really happy I've been fated to meet them.
Although we happened to be online buddies, contented for now in chatting, I'm always excited to see them online.
They make me smile, laugh and just treat me as if they've also known me for so long.
They're the kind of people I missed growing up with, the friends I wanted to be with.
It' a fair chance that I met them separately but I never thought they are actually connected (their hearts are).
June.
She's witty, funny and pretty.
She has this strong personality despite the very being she has grown up with.
She inspires me to live, to feel contented, to feel blessed.
I love her, completely and no, I'm no lesbian or else Raph is the one strangling me.
Haha.
Raph.
He's the horny little Frenchie who is my pseud0 big brother, I wish he's the real one.
He's nice, sings good (I've seen his youtube performance), very sweet and French.
Oh, did I forget he's an ultimate Frenchie hunk?
Yes, he is.
June is one lucky bitch. (giggles)
Okay.
I'm just saying I am blessed I have them now in my life, though not in physical aspect.
They made me feel less alone.
And with that, meeting them is a gift I won't trade with anyone else.
If I get to travel the world in the distant future, I'll make sure to meet them, hug them and show them the happiness they've evoke in me.
I love you June and Raph.
This is my crappy but cheesy, oh and heartfelt tribute letter to the both of you.
And no, the two are alive and kicking.
:)
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
fashion twins?
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saw this.
nakakatuwa kasi parehas kami halos ng style ng damit ni Aura.
and I like the clash of our colors.
love it.
wala lang.
share lang.
wala kasi ako iba mapost.
haha.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Of Beauty Freebies
Sunday, May 9, 2010
TANTRUMS?
Honestly, I'm a very emotional person.
In short, sensitive and expressive.
Tipong parang open-book kasi alam agad ng mga taong malapit sa'kin ano nararamdaman ko.
Take this one instance for example.
Scene 1
Mama: Anak, alis muna kami. Maya ka na umuwe bahay pagbalik namin. (we are in the fundraising kasi ng church)
Anak: (uber antok na, gising since 6am at past 5pm na) Gusto ko na umuwi eh.
L: (lumapit sakin, minasahe neck ko) Hi Lel...
Anak: (nageemote pa din sa nanay dahil gusto na ngang umuwe)
L: Ay, wala sa mood si Hallel. (sabay walk away from me)
True.
They just know when to tease me and when to feel whatever's emotions boiling inside me.
Unfortunately, they're just a few bunch who really know.
Also, they know how I can be "bitchy" during PMS days.
The very reason why, I experience this "girly stuff" for a week, usually delayed so imagine the CRAMPS and the FLOW I endure..
Imagine the PAIN, thus heightens the EMOTIONAL side of me.
Scene 2
Me: (taranta mode) Ano ba yan... nakakainis naman.. ba't naman ganito? (in short, I was just ranting endlessly, I can be 'madaldal' kasi)
R: Naku, nagiging "monster" mode na si Lel. Kalmado lang.
Me: Sorry.. e kasi naman...
R: Relax. Chill.
Me: (ayun, tinatry ko magchill.. the effort, huh!)
Kaya ayun, I'm moody.
In short, I got a flare of TEMPER and it's been part of me.
As much as I try to stretch out my patience, calm my nerves, I usually, most of the times, get easily irritated.
Panic, tantrums and monster-bitchy mood will come next.
In short, sensitive and expressive.
Tipong parang open-book kasi alam agad ng mga taong malapit sa'kin ano nararamdaman ko.
Take this one instance for example.
Scene 1
Mama: Anak, alis muna kami. Maya ka na umuwe bahay pagbalik namin. (we are in the fundraising kasi ng church)
Anak: (uber antok na, gising since 6am at past 5pm na) Gusto ko na umuwi eh.
L: (lumapit sakin, minasahe neck ko) Hi Lel...
Anak: (nageemote pa din sa nanay dahil gusto na ngang umuwe)
L: Ay, wala sa mood si Hallel. (sabay walk away from me)
True.
They just know when to tease me and when to feel whatever's emotions boiling inside me.
Unfortunately, they're just a few bunch who really know.
Also, they know how I can be "bitchy" during PMS days.
The very reason why, I experience this "girly stuff" for a week, usually delayed so imagine the CRAMPS and the FLOW I endure..
Imagine the PAIN, thus heightens the EMOTIONAL side of me.
Scene 2
Me: (taranta mode) Ano ba yan... nakakainis naman.. ba't naman ganito? (in short, I was just ranting endlessly, I can be 'madaldal' kasi)
R: Naku, nagiging "monster" mode na si Lel. Kalmado lang.
Me: Sorry.. e kasi naman...
R: Relax. Chill.
Me: (ayun, tinatry ko magchill.. the effort, huh!)
Kaya ayun, I'm moody.
In short, I got a flare of TEMPER and it's been part of me.
As much as I try to stretch out my patience, calm my nerves, I usually, most of the times, get easily irritated.
Panic, tantrums and monster-bitchy mood will come next.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
new blog and Mother's Day
mystatusissingle.blogspot.com
This is my latest upcoming blog.
Yes, everything regarding my being SINGLE and more.
I just couldn't dig much on the issue with this original blog of mine.
I think that's for another, so that's why I put the new blog.
...
Tomorrow, or rather today (20 minutes past midnight of May 09, 2010) is MOTHER'S DAY.
A day for mothers to just relax and put on hold of all things they've been busy doing everyday - laundry, ironing, making meals, babysitting, in short, working their asses off.
It's a moment to share closely with your Inay, Ina, Mama, Mommy, Mom, Nanay... or whatever endearments you have for the "ilaw ng tahanan".
It's a special day to make her more than simply special, to make her feel appreciated, loved, pampered and taken care of.
It's a time to be reminded where we came from, who is the person who nurtured us inside their wombs for almost 9 months, endured a pain-wrecking labor hours, warmed us up in the cocoon of their arms every breast-feeding seconds...
It's a moment to just hold her in our arms, feel her heartbeat rest against ours, to shower her kisses we fail to give in ordinary days...
It's a celebration of her character, her individuality, her ever-distinct presence in our family, her constant voice calling us or waking us up every morning...
It's Mother's Day.
And with that, an all-smiles and twinkling eyes greetings of HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to your beloved MOTHER.
...
and of course, including MINE.
This is my latest upcoming blog.
Yes, everything regarding my being SINGLE and more.
I just couldn't dig much on the issue with this original blog of mine.
I think that's for another, so that's why I put the new blog.
...
Tomorrow, or rather today (20 minutes past midnight of May 09, 2010) is MOTHER'S DAY.
A day for mothers to just relax and put on hold of all things they've been busy doing everyday - laundry, ironing, making meals, babysitting, in short, working their asses off.
It's a moment to share closely with your Inay, Ina, Mama, Mommy, Mom, Nanay... or whatever endearments you have for the "ilaw ng tahanan".
It's a special day to make her more than simply special, to make her feel appreciated, loved, pampered and taken care of.
It's a time to be reminded where we came from, who is the person who nurtured us inside their wombs for almost 9 months, endured a pain-wrecking labor hours, warmed us up in the cocoon of their arms every breast-feeding seconds...
It's a moment to just hold her in our arms, feel her heartbeat rest against ours, to shower her kisses we fail to give in ordinary days...
It's a celebration of her character, her individuality, her ever-distinct presence in our family, her constant voice calling us or waking us up every morning...
It's Mother's Day.
And with that, an all-smiles and twinkling eyes greetings of HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to your beloved MOTHER.
...
and of course, including MINE.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
frappe-time!
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Caramel frappe, the sweet heavenly goodness I had after walking under the scorching heat of the sun in UPLB.
I have been a fan of frappe ever since I encountered it.
I am not a regular customer of Starbucks, so no, I didn't meet my first ever frappe in that famous shop.
I tasted my first frappe (which is a mocha frappe) in ISIS, a cafe/bar located in College, Laguna.
No, I'm not plugging, I'm just telling...
I am not an avid fan of coffee, honestly.
I grew up not drinking coffee.
But later on, I met Nescafe Iced Coffee Latte and I evolved.
I began seeing coffee in a different light.
I will drink coffee if it is not HOT.
Oh yes.
I would indulge in coffee products if it is iced or in the form of frappe.
And that is the reason why I have been very much in love with FRAPPE.
Frappe is an iced coffee drink, covered with foam or whip cream, which I truly like.
And according to Wikipedia, in French, frappe incorporates the definition of shaken or chilled.
There you have it, frappe is chilled coffee drink, a relief from the summer heat.
There are many shops growing all around the world, of course, specifically in the Philippines which offer different flavors of frappe, from mocha frappe to caramel-flavored, to choco java frappe and choco mint..there's so much to choose from, the list goes on.
If you're not up for a frappe, you can have other coffee drinks, like cafe latte, espresso or just plain coffee.
I am not a coffee addict, but if you invite me to go grab a drink, let's go and chill with a frappe. That would leave me completely refreshed, especially with this kind of heat.
I'll try the rocky road frappe next time!
P.S.
This caramel frappe is from Ristretto, a coffee shop situated in Vega, College,Laguna.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
black robe and toga
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Finally, I am an official graduate of UPLB Class of Batch 2010.
I am so happy.
I am so blessed.
And right now, I'm off to just relax for a while before I embark on another phase of my life --studying in medschool.
Good luck to me and to my fellow graduates.
Wee!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Hello, my friend.
It is nice to meet new people.
But, it's so scary when people don't like you that much as you like them.
Well.
You cannot always please everyone, right?
It's just..
Sometimes, it gets in my nerves.
I always doubt myself when it comes to making new friends.
But close people told me I am approachable.
But why?
I am not that close anymore with my HS bestfriend.
I do not even have the "clicque" group of friends during college.
Despite being a nice person, trying to be sensitive to others, being fair..
I always end up being not taken importantly.
I'm just easily thrown aside.
And I hate it.
Sighs.
I just want someone who will be there for me..
who will stay..
who will protect me as I do the same for her or him.
I wish Ii'll find that person in the next phase of my life.
But, it's so scary when people don't like you that much as you like them.
Well.
You cannot always please everyone, right?
It's just..
Sometimes, it gets in my nerves.
I always doubt myself when it comes to making new friends.
But close people told me I am approachable.
But why?
I am not that close anymore with my HS bestfriend.
I do not even have the "clicque" group of friends during college.
Despite being a nice person, trying to be sensitive to others, being fair..
I always end up being not taken importantly.
I'm just easily thrown aside.
And I hate it.
Sighs.
I just want someone who will be there for me..
who will stay..
who will protect me as I do the same for her or him.
I wish Ii'll find that person in the next phase of my life.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
what does the sign tell?
Should I be in FEU?
Can my father's financial setup be able to carry on with my medical studying?
I'm scared.
I'm confused.
They still opt for PLM.
If the reconsideration letter is approved, then I might get in to PLM.
Enjoy lower tuition fees and closer school to home.
BUT.
I don't know.
I have this feeling that I'm supposed to be in FEU.
I'm fated to go there.
I'm confused really.
I wish things will be settled soon.
Sighs.
Can my father's financial setup be able to carry on with my medical studying?
I'm scared.
I'm confused.
They still opt for PLM.
If the reconsideration letter is approved, then I might get in to PLM.
Enjoy lower tuition fees and closer school to home.
BUT.
I don't know.
I have this feeling that I'm supposed to be in FEU.
I'm fated to go there.
I'm confused really.
I wish things will be settled soon.
Sighs.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
a dosage of the water element
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After a long, long time, finally I managed to enjoy my vacation through a swimming experience.
I've waited for so long, craved for this moment to happen.
I don't care if it's in a beach or just a private resort.
What matters most is I let my body relax, strolled underwater and felt the presence of the element.
And I did.
With my family and my aunt's family.
Despite the problems encountered, we managed to get soaked under the sun (but thankfully, it's not too sunny)...
I love swimming.
Here's a pic of me.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
where?
I still have no medical school to go to this coming June.
Where does God want me to be?
I have not been accepted in both PLM and UERM.
And now, I have to send in late my application for FEU.
Sighs.
I can't stop feeling lost, upset and scared.
But I will still hold on to the Higher Being.
He has been with me through all this.
He has helped me fight against the roundabout tumblings I've encountered this last sem.
He has let me graduate soon this April.
With that, I'll trust Him completely.
And soon, I will find the answer.
Where?
COming sooooooon!
Where does God want me to be?
I have not been accepted in both PLM and UERM.
And now, I have to send in late my application for FEU.
Sighs.
I can't stop feeling lost, upset and scared.
But I will still hold on to the Higher Being.
He has been with me through all this.
He has helped me fight against the roundabout tumblings I've encountered this last sem.
He has let me graduate soon this April.
With that, I'll trust Him completely.
And soon, I will find the answer.
Where?
COming sooooooon!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
headlines
I obtained this sacred information.
I won't tell it yet.
I promised I will keep it a secret.
But.
I love this new information.
It made my day complete.
I am happy.
I am thankful.
I am blessed.
If only, another good news will come by again.
Tomorrow.
I won't tell it yet.
I promised I will keep it a secret.
But.
I love this new information.
It made my day complete.
I am happy.
I am thankful.
I am blessed.
If only, another good news will come by again.
Tomorrow.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
what the heck?
2010 is not a good year for me.
Okay, not being pessimistic or anything.
I meant to say, the first quarter of this year is not good.
I am in this small thread, hanging on to it.
My future's blank.
My present's staggered.
I am so lost.
I don't know what to do.
Or what would happen to me.
I hate it.
I am hating it.
I just wanna burrow myself in a hole and cry.
Okay, not being pessimistic or anything.
I meant to say, the first quarter of this year is not good.
I am in this small thread, hanging on to it.
My future's blank.
My present's staggered.
I am so lost.
I don't know what to do.
Or what would happen to me.
I hate it.
I am hating it.
I just wanna burrow myself in a hole and cry.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
INHIBITOR
I wanted to graduate this April 2010.
My parents are expecting it, since I was supposed to graduate last year.
I have plans already.
I am waiting for results of my medical application.
And now this?
THIS came along and it's threatening my future to fall down.
I've been trying to graduate this year, but ...
A huge obstacle planted on my way and it's forcing me to stop.
It's like a LARGE INHIBITOR preventing me to push through and succeed.
I am so pissed off.
Not only on THIS but on HIM.
Seriously, I am not alone for feeling this.
Almost all my fellow graduates who are under his wing this semester are crying out their frustrations.
We're all in pain.
We're suffering in his hands.
And, now, the big news will be unfolded tomorrow.
I am scared. I am terrified.
But, I'm holding on to God..to the prayers..to the support of people who understand and are genuinely concerned for our fates.
I have to trust the Higher Being.
Come what may.
My parents are expecting it, since I was supposed to graduate last year.
I have plans already.
I am waiting for results of my medical application.
And now this?
THIS came along and it's threatening my future to fall down.
I've been trying to graduate this year, but ...
A huge obstacle planted on my way and it's forcing me to stop.
It's like a LARGE INHIBITOR preventing me to push through and succeed.
I am so pissed off.
Not only on THIS but on HIM.
Seriously, I am not alone for feeling this.
Almost all my fellow graduates who are under his wing this semester are crying out their frustrations.
We're all in pain.
We're suffering in his hands.
And, now, the big news will be unfolded tomorrow.
I am scared. I am terrified.
But, I'm holding on to God..to the prayers..to the support of people who understand and are genuinely concerned for our fates.
I have to trust the Higher Being.
Come what may.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
KAPUSO and KAPAMILYA and ME
I'm not anti-GMA nor a pro-ABSCBN.
I just can't help but react negatively with the other and be singing praises to another.
I am just a viewer who sensed something wrong.
I am just part of the Filipino audience who is not oblivious to the praiseworthy stuff made in one network and dislike certain aspects in the other.
Okay, I'll just make a direct point here.
I am not looking for a fight.
I am just an observant.
...
Here it goes.
Before, I don't care much whenever I hear stories of Kapamilya and Kapuso into a network competition.
For me, I've always thought that such rivalry is always part of Filipino's upbeat and competitive character..
BUT.
That moment when I saw the youtube video of SOP finale show.
I was shocked and pissed, honestly.
Why must the rap lyrics be so HARSH that they are pointing out ASAP, blabbing about how ASAP must be feeling happy that SOP is ending.
It just made them appeal to the masses as BITTER PEOPLE.
Seriously.
I don't mean to be rude, but that's how I perceived that part of their goodbye singing to be.
I could have enjoyed them singing their goodbyes, but that went to waste when the rap came in.
And now, I heard from the news that PARTY PILIPINAS will be choreographed by an expert (forgot the name) who have choreographed for stars such as Beyonce and Missy Elliot.
Okay, that is amazing.
BUT. Again.
It doesn't matter how good the choreographer is if the performing people are not that good enough.
So, maybe training under that guy would boost their skills up.
I hope.
So, good luck to Party Pilipinas.
...
Honestly, I'm enjoying ASAP more.
I have observed that the people there are improving.
I have always been impressed how ABSCBN managed to train their Kapamilya stars.
And I have also observed, the network mostly offered FRESH UNIQUE IDEAS, as presented by their primetime shows.
I don't mean to be biased or anything, but that's what I've been noticing, since long before.
If Kapuso really wanted to get ahead, they could start with shows which offer a fresh theme or storyline, not revival of their popular shows (like Darna or Captain Barbell).
Like Encantadia, I thoroughly loved that show.
BUT.
Please don't do a remake of that.
So, that's it.
I just have to let this out.
It's been disturbing me for quite some time.
Again.
I appreciate both networks.
I'm not saying I am against the other one and all-hands for the other.
I am just telling, there is always ROOM for IMPROVEMENT, not to let out BITTERNESS.
I just can't help but react negatively with the other and be singing praises to another.
I am just a viewer who sensed something wrong.
I am just part of the Filipino audience who is not oblivious to the praiseworthy stuff made in one network and dislike certain aspects in the other.
Okay, I'll just make a direct point here.
I am not looking for a fight.
I am just an observant.
...
Here it goes.
Before, I don't care much whenever I hear stories of Kapamilya and Kapuso into a network competition.
For me, I've always thought that such rivalry is always part of Filipino's upbeat and competitive character..
BUT.
That moment when I saw the youtube video of SOP finale show.
I was shocked and pissed, honestly.
Why must the rap lyrics be so HARSH that they are pointing out ASAP, blabbing about how ASAP must be feeling happy that SOP is ending.
It just made them appeal to the masses as BITTER PEOPLE.
Seriously.
I don't mean to be rude, but that's how I perceived that part of their goodbye singing to be.
I could have enjoyed them singing their goodbyes, but that went to waste when the rap came in.
And now, I heard from the news that PARTY PILIPINAS will be choreographed by an expert (forgot the name) who have choreographed for stars such as Beyonce and Missy Elliot.
Okay, that is amazing.
BUT. Again.
It doesn't matter how good the choreographer is if the performing people are not that good enough.
So, maybe training under that guy would boost their skills up.
I hope.
So, good luck to Party Pilipinas.
...
Honestly, I'm enjoying ASAP more.
I have observed that the people there are improving.
I have always been impressed how ABSCBN managed to train their Kapamilya stars.
And I have also observed, the network mostly offered FRESH UNIQUE IDEAS, as presented by their primetime shows.
I don't mean to be biased or anything, but that's what I've been noticing, since long before.
If Kapuso really wanted to get ahead, they could start with shows which offer a fresh theme or storyline, not revival of their popular shows (like Darna or Captain Barbell).
Like Encantadia, I thoroughly loved that show.
BUT.
Please don't do a remake of that.
So, that's it.
I just have to let this out.
It's been disturbing me for quite some time.
Again.
I appreciate both networks.
I'm not saying I am against the other one and all-hands for the other.
I am just telling, there is always ROOM for IMPROVEMENT, not to let out BITTERNESS.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
who's who?
Unfortunately, I don't have any idea who to vote for the upcoming National Elections.
It sucks.
I am given this chance to practice my rights and I do not want to regret it.
Hopefully, in the coming days, I'm going to find the LIGHT.
The LIGHT that will show me who to vote for, the one rightful for the office seats.
I don't want to see the country continue with the wrong path, there's more to offer for the nation and more it can offer...
I'm losing the days fast, the election is coming near.
So who am I going to vote?
I'll pray and find out my choice SOON.
It sucks.
I am given this chance to practice my rights and I do not want to regret it.
Hopefully, in the coming days, I'm going to find the LIGHT.
The LIGHT that will show me who to vote for, the one rightful for the office seats.
I don't want to see the country continue with the wrong path, there's more to offer for the nation and more it can offer...
I'm losing the days fast, the election is coming near.
So who am I going to vote?
I'll pray and find out my choice SOON.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
when the world goes tumbling down...
I don't want to say that life is unfair.
But it hurts so bad when you see your dreams slowly crumbling in front of you.
I don't want to lose hope, but the faith in me is gradually dying..
I am so lost right now, so down that I just want to spend my afternoon crying my heart out.
I am so disappointed in myself.
I am so ashamed.
I am so heartbroken.
I just needed my parents' embrace right now, I am so sad, so sad that I can't stop the tears from falling.
I feel like my future's getting darker and I can't seem to reach that light anymore.
Would I be drowned in darkness?
Would I tread on the path of failure from now on?
I don't know.
Oh dear God, give me strength.
Help me.
Please.
But it hurts so bad when you see your dreams slowly crumbling in front of you.
I don't want to lose hope, but the faith in me is gradually dying..
I am so lost right now, so down that I just want to spend my afternoon crying my heart out.
I am so disappointed in myself.
I am so ashamed.
I am so heartbroken.
I just needed my parents' embrace right now, I am so sad, so sad that I can't stop the tears from falling.
I feel like my future's getting darker and I can't seem to reach that light anymore.
Would I be drowned in darkness?
Would I tread on the path of failure from now on?
I don't know.
Oh dear God, give me strength.
Help me.
Please.
Friday, March 5, 2010
stupid mistakes
I am now on my way to doom.
My future's getting bleaker every second.
If I will ever be given a chance to overcome this,
I will be forever grateful.
My life is already lying on a thin piece of thread.
...
Help me God.
My future's getting bleaker every second.
If I will ever be given a chance to overcome this,
I will be forever grateful.
My life is already lying on a thin piece of thread.
...
Help me God.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
FEAR
It has been silently creeping into my system.
Much, much intense compared to those fear of not being able to pass papers or projects online, or passing/failing an examination.
It holds my eye on the future.
That's where my fear is rooting from.
I am scared, I don't know if I am going to the right step, right way, right destination.
I am afraid to disappoint not only my parents, but myself.
I am really lost right now.
Just when I thought I am already reaching what I want to accomplish,
it's getting farther from my hands.
I am so freaking out right now.
Please.
Please.
I do not want to be alone at this moment in my life.
I might collapse and have a hard time standing up.
Much, much intense compared to those fear of not being able to pass papers or projects online, or passing/failing an examination.
It holds my eye on the future.
That's where my fear is rooting from.
I am scared, I don't know if I am going to the right step, right way, right destination.
I am afraid to disappoint not only my parents, but myself.
I am really lost right now.
Just when I thought I am already reaching what I want to accomplish,
it's getting farther from my hands.
I am so freaking out right now.
Please.
Please.
I do not want to be alone at this moment in my life.
I might collapse and have a hard time standing up.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
nocturnal + tummy aches
I am having a weird diagnosis.
Nocturnal syndrome.
Recurring tummy aches.
I haven't gone to a doctor yet.
I think my nocturnal syndrome is driven by my insomniac nature?
I am having a hard time sleeping.
And, I always have this tummy aches, as if a reminder of my ulcer-induced days.
I don't want to return to those painful days.
So, hopefully, I get better from this.
Sighs.
Nocturnal syndrome.
Recurring tummy aches.
I haven't gone to a doctor yet.
I think my nocturnal syndrome is driven by my insomniac nature?
I am having a hard time sleeping.
And, I always have this tummy aches, as if a reminder of my ulcer-induced days.
I don't want to return to those painful days.
So, hopefully, I get better from this.
Sighs.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
I got a feeling!
Nakakamiss pala yung feeling na kinikilig ka.
Yung magtatagpo lang yung mga mata nyo, you just can't help but stop from smiling or else magmumukha kang weird?
Haha.
Yun na-feel ko hours ago.
I didn't expect makikita ko ulit ang aking crush!
EKSENA:
Paakyat ako stairs ng Wing C. Pagangat ko ng mga mata, napatingin agad ako sa kanan. And there he was. Sitting with his friends/classmates (dunno). And he looked in my direction. Nakakahiya pa, di ko agad binawi tingin ko, siya din. O da ba? Haha!
Okay.
Now lang ulit ako nagkacrush, can't help it.
I got this thing with the "eyes".
*sighs*
At take note, everyday ko siya nasisilayan.
Yung tipong surprise encounter, magugulat na lang ako!
Tsk.
Hay.
I'm going to see him again tomorrow.
Love it.
Yung magtatagpo lang yung mga mata nyo, you just can't help but stop from smiling or else magmumukha kang weird?
Haha.
Yun na-feel ko hours ago.
I didn't expect makikita ko ulit ang aking crush!
EKSENA:
Paakyat ako stairs ng Wing C. Pagangat ko ng mga mata, napatingin agad ako sa kanan. And there he was. Sitting with his friends/classmates (dunno). And he looked in my direction. Nakakahiya pa, di ko agad binawi tingin ko, siya din. O da ba? Haha!
Okay.
Now lang ulit ako nagkacrush, can't help it.
I got this thing with the "eyes".
*sighs*
At take note, everyday ko siya nasisilayan.
Yung tipong surprise encounter, magugulat na lang ako!
Tsk.
Hay.
I'm going to see him again tomorrow.
Love it.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
frustrated writer
I love to write.
I have a stack of unfinished stories saved in my laptop, and in our home PC (which were erased because of someone we thought was good in fixing computers!).
O well, right now, my "writer" personality is working again, even if I'm supposed to be busy with my academics, now that I am graduating. Yet, it's inevitable. My love for writing still surfaces.
That is why I am happy that I bumped into FictionPress.com, a website for people who wanted to submit and publish their written fictional stories online. It's a good thing because I wanted to publish mine which were just saved in my laptop.
I have been publishing stories in Fanfiction.net, but stories were, of course, fanfictional, where the characters are based on anime characters, or other existing characters already famous around the world, as seen in published novels and manga.
So, discovering FictionPress is like a door opening for me, for someone like me, a frustrated writer. And I hope, you can also try it out and wake up that sleeping "writer" character in you.
Passion.
Writing.
Dreaming.
I have a stack of unfinished stories saved in my laptop, and in our home PC (which were erased because of someone we thought was good in fixing computers!).
O well, right now, my "writer" personality is working again, even if I'm supposed to be busy with my academics, now that I am graduating. Yet, it's inevitable. My love for writing still surfaces.
That is why I am happy that I bumped into FictionPress.com, a website for people who wanted to submit and publish their written fictional stories online. It's a good thing because I wanted to publish mine which were just saved in my laptop.
I have been publishing stories in Fanfiction.net, but stories were, of course, fanfictional, where the characters are based on anime characters, or other existing characters already famous around the world, as seen in published novels and manga.
So, discovering FictionPress is like a door opening for me, for someone like me, a frustrated writer. And I hope, you can also try it out and wake up that sleeping "writer" character in you.
Passion.
Writing.
Dreaming.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
presenting...my pair of sandals
Reading Nuffnang's email message regarding about the "shoes story" reminded me of one experience I had with my shoes, rather specifically with my pair of sandals, and it was definitely worth remembering.
It was the usual day in college. I am not the type of student who dressed much, but I decided that day to wear my fashionable sandals. I mostly used the pair of sandals when I go to church, but not when I attend my classes.So, there I went out the dormitory, feeling pretty, wearing my white sandals. Despite noticing that the straps attached to the sole were looking not tightly sewn in anymore, I still went out wearing them.
After classes, it was time for me to go home. That was also the time when I realized that there's a problem with my pair of sandals. I was already in front of the DL Umali Hall when the middle strap of my sandal on my right foot detached itself from the sole. How lucky was I, I mused to myself. Trying to think of a solution, I hanged out near the stairs of the Freedom Park. I sent an emergency text message to my roommates back in the dormitory, hoping someone would bring me a pair of slippers or flipflops. I was on the verge of crying as I looked helplessly at my pair of sandals, slipped loosely on my bare feet.
Minutes passed and I cannot wait any longer, I took action. I tried pinning the strap in between my toes and walked round the park, literally just dragging my right foot against the floor. I was able to walk for few distances, but it was really difficult. Every time the strap slid off from my toes, I have to stop and wound it in between again.
Finally, I was nearing the dormitory and I was already exhausted. Choosing the last resort, I gathered my pair of sandals on my hand and made my way across the street and into the dormitory grounds. Smiling like a weird girl, I strode inside the dormitory and straight to the building unit where I stay.
At the room's doorstep, I burst into laughter much to the surprise of my roommates. I never imagined I could withstand walking barefeet across the dorm's hallway, but I did. Glancing at my pair of sandals, I laughed at the experience I'm sure I will never forget.
And until now, I didn't.
It was the usual day in college. I am not the type of student who dressed much, but I decided that day to wear my fashionable sandals. I mostly used the pair of sandals when I go to church, but not when I attend my classes.So, there I went out the dormitory, feeling pretty, wearing my white sandals. Despite noticing that the straps attached to the sole were looking not tightly sewn in anymore, I still went out wearing them.
After classes, it was time for me to go home. That was also the time when I realized that there's a problem with my pair of sandals. I was already in front of the DL Umali Hall when the middle strap of my sandal on my right foot detached itself from the sole. How lucky was I, I mused to myself. Trying to think of a solution, I hanged out near the stairs of the Freedom Park. I sent an emergency text message to my roommates back in the dormitory, hoping someone would bring me a pair of slippers or flipflops. I was on the verge of crying as I looked helplessly at my pair of sandals, slipped loosely on my bare feet.
Minutes passed and I cannot wait any longer, I took action. I tried pinning the strap in between my toes and walked round the park, literally just dragging my right foot against the floor. I was able to walk for few distances, but it was really difficult. Every time the strap slid off from my toes, I have to stop and wound it in between again.
Finally, I was nearing the dormitory and I was already exhausted. Choosing the last resort, I gathered my pair of sandals on my hand and made my way across the street and into the dormitory grounds. Smiling like a weird girl, I strode inside the dormitory and straight to the building unit where I stay.
At the room's doorstep, I burst into laughter much to the surprise of my roommates. I never imagined I could withstand walking barefeet across the dorm's hallway, but I did. Glancing at my pair of sandals, I laughed at the experience I'm sure I will never forget.
And until now, I didn't.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
TUMBLR galore
yep.
I'm actually enjoying it.
just sharing.
hehe.
noahthedreamer.tumblr.com
HAPPY 2010.
hoping for some loooooooove this year.
and, oh yes, success in entering a medical school.
I'm actually enjoying it.
just sharing.
hehe.
noahthedreamer.tumblr.com
HAPPY 2010.
hoping for some loooooooove this year.
and, oh yes, success in entering a medical school.
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