i just physically assaulted my brother.
he can be so irritating to the point of being unnervingly hostile.
why must i endure the bad judgment later on then?
isn't it me always being reprimanded here?
i was never properly appreciated - even just in small account, that would be very nice.
sometimes, i wish i could fly away and find my secret haven where i can feel secured and safe.
sometimes, i wanted to forget everything, to have amnesia or to sleep unnerved by everyone else.
i'm always in pain.always lost.always hurt.but do they notice it? no,even if i'm seen as transparent as a clear plastic.
maybe if i'll doze this off, i can let it go eventually.
yeah, maybe, eventually.